Tuesday
on Tuesday morning
you rang me twice
once to cry
once to chastise
you snapped the phone down
as if it were my neck -
broke the line, so I
I played love songs all day
cried as I put your clothes away
thought of not kissing you
when the clock strikes new years day.
hot tears blistering my face
I imagined deeds to please you
to make you change your heart
if only my voice would flow
then I would sing you
somewhere over the rainbow
these are the lands that I dream of:
why oh why oh why?
and I have wished upon a star
it doesn't work, we're far
apart. There's always the next life
if I can find you, if we're born together.
one day
when we are older
who knows
we may meet up in the cold
and learn to huddle again
such serendipity
that's where I'll find you -
over the rainbow.
if only that were now
your arms clasped around me
your beautiful eyes
the colour of the sea
weeping tears of joy
for me, for me, for me.
one day without you now
I only feel the ache of loss
the paralysis of my mind to life
is all that is left,
without you here, I'm crucified
nailed to that splinter of hope.
29th December 1998
