Empty

Empty

I am void. Silence echoes around

its own decrepit walls. I lean on

nothing but your cold shoulder.

For my pillow, I have your spite,

your anger keeps me wrapped

cold at night, dreaming of the

emptiness of your lost embrace.

And you have gone.

You stand beside me,

I look at you and smile

I see the grimace of feigned cheer

that chills the bones that barely stand.

There's not an ounce of flimsy grasp

in the cradle of your hands,

instead

limp wristed

they lie there

deathlike in my weeping palms.

Your kisses, frost upon my face

your heart

sealed behind the mountains

of your resentment.

Where once love ran like a river

in which I bathed and swam

now, there is glacier

in which I am entombed.

The ice

my tears.

Booing yet? she asked -

What do you care?

I was a video of a love story

Now I've been ejected

rejected

left scattered

amongst the carnage of my life.

Refuse,

garbage

that's all I have become to you.

You see nothing of the love

nothing of the love

no, nothing of the love.

And I

I am trapped like a trooper

in the barbs of your hate

my heart

weeping upon the spikes

of scorn

that pierces my impailed soul.

I love you

You shoot me dead.

And as you read this

you'll turn my words inside out,

claim it's me.

You smelt my wounds

and hammer them over the anvil

of your wrath,

sharpen them to knives

and stab me

in the back.

Betrayed.

You promised a life time of love

but Indian giving,

and fingers crossed behind your back

you take it all away.

Tomorrow

you will go away again

another nail in the coffin

another shard of pain

like a flat balloon

my life seems in vain.

If I cannot have you

I cannot love again

Sorrow

Is my expression

it twists my face

wrings tears from my torn heart.

My head, dead, hurts like something

I cannot describe.

oh,

to have you

to have you

On top of windy Withens

you wrenched my dreams

tossed them on the moor

and now

depart.

You love me,

you love me not

within a year

I'll be forgot.

29^th December 1998